The need for balance
It is becoming a more and more pressing issue that I have, to manage the expectations of the commitments I am willing to make for my work, especially in terms of the hours I put in.
It is bordering on absurdity at times when I begin to feel that the reports I spend so much time producing, are sometimes just to allow the people above me feel in control.
How sickening.

Labels: career
A fly on a window
I am feeling tired.
Now what happens is like a fly on a window; you repeatedly bang your way out, hoping that it will bring you to where you wanna be, but you know you are just a fly and never in your ability would you be able to break through the glass. But the light from outside is so nice and warm , you know you will be happy when you get outside, you see the purpose and the benefit it will bring you....
What would you do if you are working with all your heart and might, believing your efforts can and will lead to a better end result: to make something work... but you know that others are not similarly aligned. Then when you get sucked into the pointlessness of it all, your direct report in return won't allow you to slow down also. You want to perform, you believe in what you do, but deep down inside, you just want to stop and slow down and enjoy......

Labels: everyday
Why not?
There's only 1 thing, 2 say, those 3 words, 4 you...Three names I go by:
1. Hui Ling (friends before uni, and some others)
2. Amy (most friends from uni onwards)
3. Ah Ling (that's only for my mom)
Three Jobs I have had in my life:
1. Envelope opener (RM7/hr okay!)
2. Client Servicing Exec
3. Waitress
Three Places I have lived:
(for at least a month that is)
1. SS18, Subang Jaya
2. Rotterdam, The Netherlands
3. College Za'ba, UM
Three Favorite drinks:
1. Cool H2O (nothing beats this)
2. Pink Guava juice
3. Tea: nice, aromatic and sweet
Three TV Shows that I watch:
(I don't have Astro at home but...)
1. National Geographic/Animal Planet
2. Myth Busters
3. Who Wants to be a Millionaire (ages ago)
Three places I have been to:
1. Cape Town, South Africa
2. Milan, Italy
3. The men's toilet
People that e-mail me regularly:
(actually I get very few personal emails..)
1. Colleagues
2. Sharon
3. Ee-Wah
Three of my favorite foods:
1. Tomyam Beehoon
2. Mom's cooking e.g. spaghetti
3. My own cooking (even if its just Maggi noodles)
Three favourite moments:
1. Lying down beside the person I love
2. Walking in the rain
3. Carefree along the east coast beach
Three things I cannot TAHAN (cannot tolerate)
1. Smelly people (even at the beginning of the day! omg)
2. Dramatic people who over exaggerate
3. Sloppy work
Three of my weaknesses:
1. Perfectionism
2. Too eager to please, caring too much what people think
3. Taking things too seriously, hard on myself
Three unfulfilled fantasies:
1. That bliss somewhere far away
2. Jumping from a high spot e.g. bungee jumping, parachuting, sky diving... you get the idea
3. Crazy shopping spree
Three Things I am looking forward to:
1. My pay rise
2. My own apartment to decorate
3. When I'm happy again
Labels: everyday
Tired, sleepy, bored
zzzZzz...
I wanna go eat nice food
I wanna lepak with Chew
I wanna sleep for >8 hours
I wanna play with Blu
zZzzZzz...
Labels: everyday